Ah Bummer.. Not another day we set out on our biggest conquest of life. What is the difference between living your life as an animal.. and living your life as a Human? Human life is far more complicated.. and far more under pressure. Pressure? Yes, pressure of living up to your own expectations and the one of your neighbor's.
I dont know why.. but i get sick of waking up every single day to the same scenario over and over again. Probably if Sun had parents, relatives, school, exams, love life, friends.. then it would also be thinking at dawn.."shucks.. not another day again. gotta wake up the world.. gotta let them bask in my glory.. not like they care abt me.. i go back home in the night.. and its like they already have enough replacements.. tubelights bulbs what not.. and the light that i give to the moon.. makes it the 'romantic symbol'. Damn.. life is soo unfair.."
Yah.. now isnt that something we get to see every single day in our lives too??? How often do we sit around and think.. Gosh, life is so unfair. Quite often i guess.
I am not tryin to sound down. There is just another way to look at it. If you have been flying high for too long.. then coming to normal.. seems like coming way down.. Thats perhaps the only logical explaination for everything going on around me.
Yes, after turning 20 recently.. i realized the first lesson of my adult life.."never get too excited abt anything. Be sober always.."
All those things that gave me high :
Friends.. Yah, we luv them either too much.. to let them go often. And we find ourselves in the costant tug of war of time we spend with them and the favors we do or they do. I used to do just anything for anyone.. but now i am gettin sober. I will help.. but i wud understand that there is only this much i can do. I am humbled by my limitations.
Love.. Yah, the sweet roses blooming around you.. givin you the thrill coursing through ur veins. I realized.. that we luv the ppl around us way too much to let them scold us. cause when they do then it hurts too much too. Love.. i guess is what is stopping u from kiling me.. and stoppin me from killing u.
Probably, even after this revelation i will continue to wake up to see another day of chaos and a constant struggle to be in the good books of everyone (including my own mind). Does it ever end?
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Classic case of post-teen depression. Happens to a bunch of us. When life doesn't really live up to K2H2, K3G expectations....... or anything else you ever saw or was ever led to believe.
The tone of the post suggests you are ready for initiation into the existentialist fold.
Don't listen to them, Divya... they're just being nasty ;)
This "sobering up" happens to everybody... for me it happened when I was at a younger age than you... so what did I do? I get my 'highs' from science fiction and fantasy: through books, movies and games. Real life life is just too dull... even though that's probably self-imposed.
Div ? where did you go off to ?
[intern] im always flyin high. born with it..:p Yah. my bday passed 4 days ago. Thanks girl..;)
[doppel] i wud call it a classic case of post-teen non-discretion. Living up to k2h2 n k3g is worse.. it is more tearful than reality! That much emotional trauma might be fateful..
[prashu] real life is jus 2 fast pace 4 me. i wanna badly slow down.. yet i find myself lackin the rite speed. so the frustration..
[vc] i hav alwyz been here.:p n actively speakin in ur posts..:) guess who i am? (smirks)
-divster
frustratiion..everyone goes through that...just chill no....don't even try to figure out anything!!..it's not worth the effort...life is too complicated to figure out..when you are 18 you think you know everything and can do whatever you want..as you grow older you realize..oh well all that is not true...
and belated happy bday!..20 huh..no longer a teenager..it sounds young to me..old to you!!..
btw..you dont get to secretly change your address!!
Love.. i guess is what is stopping u from kiling me.. and stoppin me from killing u.
Probably, even after this revelation i will continue to wake up to see another day of chaos and a constant struggle to be in the good books of everyone (including my own mind). Does it ever end?
Hmm...just happened to read it again..have you seen "American Beauty"..it characterizes the monotony of everyday life..nothing is wrong..yet nothing is right..
I am extremely sorry I wanted to wish u on your Birthday and i sort of.... che .. Vc shakes his head.
Belated wishes Divya.
And did I just sense the flowers blooming ? :)
uhahahhaa...
i believe it's more to do with how one sees things. Our life is more complicated than other living beings because it is we who have made it to be the way it is. Otherwise the sun still works the same way without the need to change batteries :D...
Like u have mentioned, emotion( friends, love, hate, anger etc) is one thing that we all care about, and is probably the only explanation for most the troubles we go the through as humans. Then again that is what i believe is out greatest gift. It's only which emotion we choose to control that determines the level of peace within our mind :)... one hell of a philosphy this comment of mine :D..
Well, precisely the predicament. When, we are faced with situations where too many emotions and relations r at stake, we tend to get pulled down by the choice.
Maybe with age, we learn to make wiser choices. But, until then. i think a chaotic sequence of emotions is prevalent among teenagers.
Thanks for always takin the effort to comment on my blog. Im an amateur in these matters. I wll learn to value ur comments more and reply them in time. :)
hmmm agree with what u say about the difficulty to make the right choice...and yeah, with time and age our choices tend to increase as does our ability to make the right choice....well i go by my gut feeling... after all in the big picture we are just a spec in the universe :D....easy come easy go :)
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